During Thanksgiving, the grandkids showed up with a Star Wars puzzle. We put it out on the table, started putting it together…for the next few days, I worked on it alone between bad TV and background roles…nothing serious. They went (peacefully) home filled with punkin pie and ham oblivious to my nature; I am not a jigsaw puzzle kind of guy, I prefer to solve complex issues – like a good manufacturing/process engineer…but also hate unfinished challenges!!!
Since Thanksgiving, that puzzle has stared back at me as I passed it. It has sneered and jeered at me, taunting me with its seemingly simplistic solution…knowing that I would struggle with it going undone! It awakened me at night, screaming…crying. It has been filling my thoughts as I drove to play dress up on different sets from here to Atlanta. Constantly harassing my peace.
Today, I sat down at the table and put a piece in place.
At the bottom of the box.
Then another, quickly large handfuls…before tearing apart the borders; they followed into the box.
And I put the lid on the blame thing and placed it in a bag for them to take home.
DONE!!!!
I do not need that pressure on me. I don’t even like jigsaw puzzles. The last thing I want to spend a chunk of my last days on the earth straining my new cataract free eyeballs searching for folds on Luke’s clothes or part of Leia’s hair!
Right now I just want adventures as a judge, professor, camera man, or priest, or pedestrian…maybe even a speaking part in some show or movie…a camping or fishing trip…lunch with good friends…
…or just a guilt (and jigsaw puzzle) free nap on a Friday afternoon.
And I can tell ya; just like other things I have unnecessarily burdened myself with…it feels awesome to just say enough and box up something I do not need to worry about…something that I no longer have any interest in pursuing.
Just let it go.
Wish I had done more of that when I was younger…a lot more.
Topwater Moon 